Bad day yesterday...

Yesterday was a bad day...

Once again it hurts...

「ヘルヴィン」まで：　本とに御免なさい。。。
TO "Helvin": I'm really sorry...

Really sorry...
very sorry....

*cries*

I didn't mean to.. I didn't mean to drop you...

....

If you guys wonder why...
Here's the story...

Today I was supposed to have an audition to join in "Jammer'z Arena" Interest Group in my school, so initially I bought my electric guitar, "Helvin" along with me to school.
However, the least I knew was I never expect that I didn't get to play "Helvin" during the audition.

I sang Gazette's "wakaremichi"... ガゼットの「別れ道」は歌う...

While I was walking to the Bus Interchange, I suddenly had this bad feeling... in fact very bad...
It happened a few step later, in which.... my guitar, "Helvin", fell out of the guitar bag and hit the floor flat...
Flat on the ground... I'm really sorry... 本とにごめんなさい...
I didn't do it on purpose but it really fell out from my guitar bag and I had totally... no idea.. how it happened... I quickly picked it up and put it back into the bag without checking and when I felt the dizzy and headache attacking me when I got home...

I wasn't able to eat anything for the night, its just not right...

Just then I remembered that I needed to check up on Helvin... I cried...

Damage caused:
Scratches over its beautiful coating,
Scratches on the guitar string,
Toggle switch damaged,
Worst of all.... Sound system damaged...(2 tones and Master volume)...
I'm not sure if the machine heads has been damaged but... let's hope it'll get well soon...

I'm really sorry... but I promise I will try my best to get it fixed. But please do understand, please... Because I have work.. 2 part-time jobs waiting for me and I'll be working WHOLE day...
And yes.. to me, this guitar, is something I love really a lot. whenever I'm playing it, I can feel it...
Like what happened today, I could feel the pain and it really breaks my heart.
It is like, both me and my guitar is like.. erm.. has been bonded together, heart and soul...

"We were bonded heart and soul, forever together."
“ずっと一緒だった、心と魂はむ結びつく。”

Anyway, as for the part time job, please do not worry, I've already decided to quit my first job and will be working there last day on 10th June.. (which is just one day after Uruha's & Miseichan's Birthday)

*hugs guitar to sleep*

I feel tired but... I will continue on.

...Right now listening to loads of Gazette's song... yeah... Every song they played...

*heart broken*

*weak smiles*
Another thing is, I'm glad to hear that Gazette will be going back to Japan on Monday...
Which means my present will be able to reach Uruha already.
I'm glad to hear that and thanks

miseichan

for the information.. *hugs*

*sings along with Ruki*
*still hugging on the guitar*

kitto kawarazu aishiteiru..

歌手：ガゼット
作詞：流鬼.
作曲：大日本異端芸者の皆様

ずっと繰り返してた
ずっと悲しませてばかりだった
きっとあなたさえも傷付けて
僕は動けぬまま

あなたに触れる事が
何故こんなに苦しいのですか？
きっと　同じ事を繰り返しあなたを
失ってしまうのが怖かったから

寄り添う事で拭おうとして
忘れ切れなかった日を
あなたは何も聞かずに
その手を握ってくれたね

明日あなたの気持ちが離れても
きっと変わらず愛している
明日あなたに僕が見えなくても
ずっと変わらず愛している
Ｉ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｗａｌｋ　ｔｏｇｅｔｈｅｒ，
ｔｈｅ　ｆｕｔｕｒｅ　ｎｏｔ　ｐｒｏｍｉｓｅｄ
Ｉｔ　ｋｅｅｐｓ　ｗａｌｋｉｎｇ　ｔｏｇｅｔｈｅｒ，
ｔｏ　ｔｈｅ　ｆｕｔｕｒｅ　ｉｎ　ｗｈｉｃｈ　ｙｏｕ　ａｒｅ…

辛い事さえ　忘れるくらい
あなたを想っている
会えない夜を数える度に
焦がれるむ濡

かけ違いの寂しさ募る
どうか一人きりで泣かないで
どんなに離れていても
信じ合える二人でいよう

どうかこのまま　笑っていたい
あなたを傷付けさせないで
時が経つ度　薄れて行った
あなた想い　繰り返したくない
明日あなたの気持ちが離れても
きっと変わらず愛している
明日あなたに僕が見えなくても
ずっと変わらず愛している。
どうか　僕だけを　見つめていて
どうか　この手が　解けぬよう

Ｉ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｗａｌｋ　ｔｏｇｅｔｈｅｒ，　
ｔｈｅ　ｆｕｔｕｒｅ　ｎｏｔ　ｐｒｏｍｉｓｅｄ
Ｉｔ　ｋｅｅｐｓ　ｗａｌｋｉｎｇ　ｔｏｇｅｔｈｅｒ，　
ｔｏ　ｔｈｅ　ｆｕｔｕｒｅ　ｉｎ　ｗｈｉｃｈ　ｙｏｕ　ａｒｅ…