Monday, September 25, 2006
Konbanwa Minna san! Yuki desu!
*In a groove mood* Falls for Uruha.
Today I have been slacking, seriously saying this really isn't the time for me to slack.
Anyways, yesterday I had fun chatting with miseichan from Batsu J-Rock Forum on msn.
*waves* Nice to meet you, I will update you as soon as possible for the art work!
Oh another thing is, it seems that lately MSN is very much screwed up, so is Nameless Liberty Sanctuary Forum, I wonder how is everyone doing there now... I kind of miss them all...
Oh man... *kicks internet*
*Sigh* Tomorrow there's school and I don't feel like waking up early and all but I have to hang in there! Yosh! Gambatte ne! Enjoy the lyrics!
I want to dance with you, to sing your song.
I feel like singing my heart out, along with this passion.
I want to sing for you, together with you.
Everyday everytime at every moment.
I am thinking of you, waiting for you.
Gazette - Silly God Disco
It is cheesed with power and the morality of which it goes mad
A lot of people became dogs having tied to the chain
Your happy there?
I want to be enjoying the life though it will knock against a high wall hereafter
I'm already dead however I was saved with the rock
I swore I at that time. I will walk life that shines highest
There is no fear. It gets it over though there is a painful day too
Now let's go. The wing expands and goes to look for freedom and the glory
The world that extends to the place waits surely for you.
odoranai ka? Real Cinderella kizu darake no GARASU no MAACHIN de
*Hey God! Are you ready? x3
kikasete yo "bodies"
*Hey God! Are you ready? x3
zecchou wo oshiete yaru yo tonight
I swore I at that time. I will walk life that shines highest
There is no fear. It gets it over though there is a painful day too
Now let's go. The wing expands and goes to look for freedom and the glory
The world that extends to the place waits surely for you.
odoranai ka? Real Cinderella kizu darake no GARASU no MAACHIN de
*Hey God! Are you ready? x3
hizumi wo agete
*Hey God! Are you ready? x3
hibiki kasetekure tonight
*Hey God! Are you ready? x3
dou ni demo shitekure
*Hey God! Are you ready? x3
kurui dashita yoru ni [DO LUCK] yori mo amai Fuck'n roll buchikondekure I wonder what will happen next...?
Friday, September 22, 2006
Konnichi wa Minna san! Yuki desu!
*Happy and Hyper mood today*
Omigosh Omigosh Omigosh~! I just can't stop listening to the GazettE's new songs and their PV is just so cool! I am feeling so hyper today. *dances to the music*
If only I have a CD burner, I would have burn all my favourite the GazettE's song and play it in my discman nonstop~!
Okei, I am seriously saying that this is my first time I have ever been so crazy about something in my whole life. Hmm maybe not the first thing but its still the first time I have ever been like this.
Thanks mahachan from Batsu J-Rock Forum for the lyrics for the GazettE - Regret
Hodoke kaketa ito ni kizuki
Zuuto tsunagi tometereba yokata
Afure dashite nagareta mono wa
Ano hi no kimi to onaji iro darou
Kimi ga suteta kotoba wo hiroi atsumeta
Nando mo mimi ni atete wa unazuite miseta
Kimi wo sagasenu imi to tomoru pinku no neon ni
Sakebi wa yagate kakikesarete kokei na jibun ni waraeta
Hodoke kaketa ito ni kizuki
Zuuto tsunagi tometereba yokatta
Afure dashite nagareta mono wa
Ano hi no kimi to onaji ki ga shiteta
Kimi ga otoshita namida wo hiroi atsumete
Nando mo sugaru youni sekibaku wo kumou to~
Roujyou ni futari no taihai wa
Kimi to yoku nita PIERCE no shita
Kimi to yoku nita RING wo tsukete
Kimi to yoku nita ROUGE no nutta
Kimi to onaji iro no kami wo shite
Kimi to yoku nita namida ga mieta
Kimi to onaji namae wo sakendanda
Yubisaki ni tsutawaru yasuragi wa utsuro
Utsuka ano futari wa te wo tsunaida mama
Nureta endorooru no naka
Monokuro no FILM wa utawanai
Tsurai de ita kono te ni nokoru
Utsurou na kanshoku no kimi ga saigo
Hodoke kaketa ito ga kirete
Hiroi atsumeta kotoba to nemuri
Afure dashite nagareta mono wa
Kiito kimi to yoku niterunodarou
Yume wa towa ni yume no mama de
Yasuragi wa tsune ni yume no naka de
I wonder what will happen next...?
Sunday, September 17, 2006
Konbanwa Minna san. Yuki desu.
*Sigh*
After collecting my contact lenses, the first time I wore it was perfectly fine yesterday.
I kept my lenses as told by the eye doctor, until this afternoon when I woke up at around 12pm+, I woke up and went straight to the bath room to wear it.
The right lenses got in with no problems at all, problem lies with the left side.
I tried to put it on many times but it fell out many times due to blinking, I don't know why did I react that way, I mean my eye felt uncomfortable with the solution. Of course it does sting like my right eye but this time its different on my left eye.
When the lenses got into my left eye. I feel the sting unbearable than the right eye and I looked into the mirror. My left eye turned red inwhich the pain had caused.
I really feel bad and irresponsible at that time and nearly cried.
It is my resonsibility. I know it. Yet I can't keep it.
Where did I go wrong? I did everything the eye doctor told me to.
Is it the soap? The tissue paper or the tower which I wipe my hands on?
Or was it because of the solution inwhich I tried many times to get the lenses in?
I am confused. Very confused.
I let my eyes rest for 4 hours after the pain and tried again, yet the same pain occured.
It really hurts me and I am feeling very hurt right now.
I mean, I want to prove that I am a responsible person yet my parents claim that I am someone who is not responsible. I feel like crying out loud, screaming to the fullest.
However, I can't do it. Not yet, not now. Not only that, I want to continue on wearing contact lenses for the sake of doing Lives with Harmatia as well. I want to do a good job in it but after this has happened, I really have doubts about myself.
My friend was here in my house after my first attempt of wearing the contact lenses.
I can't show her this, my tears. So I ended up opening the GazettE's Live which I downloaded that has quite alot of screaming parts and I wanted to scream. Afterall, I physchoed her into liking the GazettE, she was here to watch it with me, Standing Live Tour 2006 'Nameless Liberty Six Guns'.
The more I watched the GazettE's Nameless Liberty Six Guns live, I feel them. The passion, the happiness, their smile, the look on their face. I want to meet them, to tell them how much I like them and that they are the ones who inspired me to carry on hanging in there.
That was how I felt when I watched the Live in this upset mood.
Maybe I should write a letter to the GazettE about this. I don't know, I feel like doing this but my Japanese is poor considering my current state that I am a not the kind of study person who can tolerate sitting down, reading a book which bores me. I am a visual emotional art and music person who always visualises the events going on when listening to the music, the melody and rythmn of the song to create the vision in my mind eventhough I don't really understand the language.
I really want to do well for my O levels but my results are like F9 and E8s.
My head really feel very heavy about this because as I said before, I am not the kind of study person, I dislike that. Yet I want to get into Singapore Polytechnic's Music and Audio Techonology which is actually 12 points. That is like "OH MY GOD" judging by my results.
Alot of times I told myself, I can't carry on going online but I don't want to lose connection with my fellow bandmates neither do I want to dissapoint them.
As a leader of the band, how can I be irresponsible and lazy as I am now?!
It is really hard for me to change in just a day, this laziness has become one of my bad habit and I have to fight it no matter what... I feel like a failer...
Post comments about this please, I need to refer back to it although there is a chatbox in here.
Well, at least the comments will stay on forever? *bitter smile*
I wonder what will happen next?
Saturday, September 16, 2006
Ohayo Minna san, Oyasashiburi desu!
Finally~!
Today I will be going to collect my contact lenses in the evening ne, at the same time there will be a dinner for Ouran koukou cosplayers though not everyone will be able to turn up.
Too bad I can't turn up for the dinner as well, because the time clashes with my collection of contact lenses. T^T
What's more is that I am thinking of going out to take a look at Gazette's album ne..
Hmm~ Unless I rush everything, that might actually work but its really cramped and tight-scheduled.
OH!!! Tomorrow is Tora's, Alice Nine's guitarist, birthday!!!*Kyaaaaa~*
I don't know what to write to him on the fanmail, someone please help me~! T.T
This month's gig at Gas Haus is coming soon and I don't have any nice clothes to wear for the event ne.. *double sad*.. *thinks hard*..
EH? I shouldn't even be thinking about clothes right now. O levels is coming near and this time round I am really getting very worried at it! Omigosh~ I am already in a tight-schedule! GAHHHHHH!!! Have to hand in O level Art course work by the end of this month and I haven't even done anything about it lately other than my painting.
Jaa mata ne!!!*scrumbles off to settle things*
I wonder what will happen next?
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Konbanwa Minna san! Yuki desu!
Incase some of you have noticed that there might be some gibberish looking words on your screen. It is actually Japanese words and you need the Unicode for it.
Sorry for those who can't view it... m(_ _)m
AHH!!! I forgot to mention that my cousin's Chinchilla, Cherry, gave birth to a baby Chinchilla, Peach, today~!!! KYAAAA~~!!! Peach chan wa Kawaii~~!!! *Points at the picture above*
Kawaii ne~? (^v^)
Oh yes, today is also the day that I am supposed to go collect my contact lenses.
However, my mother didn't want me to go out due to my Prelims which is going on for this 2 weeks... *Shruggles*
Oh well, what I can say is that I might fail ... AGAIN.
Yes I know that sucks alot and that I really hate to get crop up in the house lately.
Of course before I forgot, on 22nd September 2006, there will be another gig going on at Gas Haus which is located at Bugis. (^v^)
Go watch it if you have the time~! It will be really great to see everyone enjoying themselves there!
Check it out at http://sgcafe.com/showthread.php?t=28736
Hope to see everyone there!
| Your Personality Cluster is Introverted Thinking |
You are:
Objective, honest, and credible
Intellectually curious, with many diverse interests
More inclined toward ideas than people
Fiercely independent and unapologetically unconventional |
I wonder what will happen next?
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Konnichiwa Minna san. Yuki desu!
Lately I have been really busy with lots of thoughts in my mind so I will just summarise what has been going on in this few days which I have not updated my blog at all.
For your information, I will be MIA (Missing in Action) until my O level examination is over.
Also, whenever I feel tired, I will be in this kind of "Semi-Awake" mode. Meaning to say, I will not reply to anyone, whether is it in forums or not unless I feel that I have to give you an answer.
30th August
I had PTC (Parents Teacher Conference) in school on that day and basically we just talked about my grades, my troubles, my dreams etc...
What I have been thinking is that I wanted to get into Singapore Polytechinic for this Music & Audio Technology (SP) course which will be of beneficial to my band and of my interest other than just Creative Media Design (SP) and Games Design and Development (SP).
I have also mentioned about my band, Harmatia, to my Class Councillor and my mother who was with me at that time, knows about this as well.
Okei, pratically I am the kind of person who is Visual Art and Music. Whenever I see lyrics, I tend to try visualise it in my mind. What's more is that this is the same for my art piece which I have yet to complete. As for my grades, you can guess it. I am not good in my studies so getting into the course as mentioned above will be great trouble and it is difficult for me to improve in a short time. However, I will do my best as promised to my long gone grandfather. Its a long story...
2nd September
We were supposed to have a Jamming Gathering but it turns out that everyone were all having fun instead of jamming. I'm not sure what was everyone thinking about but I felt kind of annoyed that I have wasted part of my precious time waiting and it turn out that I haven't even get to buy my own guitar bag which I intended to do so on that day.
Anyway, we took some photos on that day and its posted at http://sgcafe.com/showthread.php?t=28574
Well, Koyuki sama lead us to one of Alise's shop in Bugis street and from there Alise lead us to her new shop which opened behind Bugis Junction on the 6th floor. Sorry about that, I don't know the name of the building but its quite small.
Do go to Alise's shop when you have the time! There is quite alot of interesting Punk and Lolita's clothings in her shop and alot of design which interests me. However, the size is quite small for me, I wonder if she has any bigger sizes. *smiles*
3rd September
In the afternoon, I went out with my parents leaving my brother behind that is.
Off to Sim Lim Square we go to get a DV wire for the Video Camera which I ended up not knowing how to upload the video into my camera even if I had the wire.
Anyways, the best part is, I purchased the punk Jacket from Alise and I will be getting myself a pair of contact lenses!!! *Jumps in excitement*
After all these years, I finally get to have my first contact lens. However, I will only try it out for one month, to test it if my eyes are suitable to wear contacts.
I wonder what will happen next...?
